Hope

We sometimes hope to see someone again that has left us, we sometimes hope to be millionaires, we sometimes hope for a new start. We hope for a lot of things, but there are things we never have to hope for. Like clean water, fresh air, family, food, because these are things we may already have access to. I remember hoping to get new clothes when I younger, because the clothes that I was wearing were too small and were beginning to fall apart. I also remember hoping for a new game or game console. These were the kinds of things I hoped for when I was a kid. As I got older things that I hoped for I had and then I began to hope for new things, like shoes, popularity, iPods, etc. I wanted a lot more, a lot of the things that I hoped for were never really necessary, but I wanted them because they would make me feel better and make me feel cool. I never understood why I could never get the things that I wanted, but as I grew older and matured I realized that there are things that your parents can and cannot afford. I hoped for someone to notice my cool new shoes and then I would my mom and dad would be together again. I had two separate things I hoped for in my life, things that I wanted and things that I needed. Like I wanted shoes. But I needed my family to be whole again, so I could stop crying every time I saw dad. I always asked him when he was coming home and he said he can’t. Then I would cry more. I would hope and hope that one day my family would be whole again. I eventually grew out of it, I stopped hoping for that. I knew that those kinds of things will not alway happen. My mom and dad are still separated, but my relation with my dad is perfect. My family may not have been whole or together when I was younger, but they are together in my heart.

I no longer hope for thing that I know that I can get. I only hope things that I know I am unable to achieve on my own. I am capable of doing a lot of things on my own and if I want something, I will get it. Like if I want shoes, I will buy shoes. If I want more games, I will buy more games. If I want pizza and pop and chips, I will get it. I am not longer limited to the things that I want. I can go out to the store and grab whatever I want on the spot. If I am unable to get things at the store I go online and purchase it. I no longer for miniscule things. I now hope for larger and more prized things. I hope that one day I will travel the world. I hope that I will change the world. I hope that I am able to provide a future for my family and friends. I hope that I can make a difference in each persons life that I meet. I hope that I wake up every morning. I hope that my family is safe. I hope that health is okay. I hope that I will always be happy. There is so much that I hope for. I know that my hopes can only go so far and there is only so much that can be hoped for.

I am not saying stop hoping for things, your hopes are the only things that you come up with and those things motivate you. Keep hoping, you are motivating yourself to keep your hopes up and to eventually get the things that you want and need. Hope for things are possible and don’t rely on them, because sometimes thing we hope, we can achieve and get our own. We have to believe in ourselves as much as we believe in the hopes we have.

 

-EB

No limits

Trying to keep my mind active as possible when I am awake is a real task. Because, I want to be as productive as possible and do everything efficient as possible. This is part of training my mind and my body. Being aware that I am not completely ready for certain tasks or noticing that I am still lacking in some areas and that I need to improve. I have this problem. It’s called being lazy and I like to make excuses for when I am lazy. I can think of a million things as to why I deserve to be lazy and continue to be lazy for the rest of the day, the week, or the month. I try not to let myself fall victim to these kinds of things too often, but there are times where I do slip and I readjust and try again. I try to keep myself disciplined and maintain a schedule so that I am able to complete as many tasks, plans, ideas, and other projects. Doing this allows me to train my mind and body and stay disciplined.

You have no idea the wonders of getting your first real job and how life changing that is. I was jobless back in 2012 and I wasn’t able to find any work in the small town that I live in. I keep trying and trying. I was brought on to the town volunteer fire department and did that for couple of months. To my luck, the manager of the store was also on the fire department and he got to know the type of person that I am and the type of attitude I have towards work. He eventually got a hold of me and offered me a job at the local grocery store. Where I have been working for the past 6 years. I was on social assistance since I was 18, then when I finally got my job at the coop, I got off social assistance and have never needed it since. I worked my way up the ladder. I now make a pretty decent pay cheque, I am the second most senior employee at the store, I am also the store’s Union Shop Steward, and I am full-time.

When I first started working there, I wasn’t impressed with the pay as it was low and I was expecting more. But then I realized, I was getting two of these kinds of pay cheques in a month as a opposed to $310.95 a month. I was getting $270.00 every two weeks. That’s $540.00. Which means I making more than I was when I was on social assistance. The more I worked, the more responsibilities were dropped on me. The more responsibilities dropped on me, meant it was time for me to ask for more pay for the amount of work I was doing, this is what I thought was fair. I talked to my manager, which was a different manager then the one that hired me, he agreed that I was doing more work and that it would be fair for me to get a raise. After my raise I kept climbing the ladder and then eventually took on the role as the Shop Steward and then I wanted to make more hours and eventually became full-time. After I became full-time, I haven’t been happier. I worked to get this far and I only want to keep climbing. I almost to the top.

I am just saying, the more excuses you make, the less you will be able to do. You are limiting yourself from your own potential. You just have to reach out and try. I didn’t know that I was capable of doing the things I do today. Like, I didn’t know that my opinion had any weight to it, until I actually started speaking and having people hear what I had to say on the subject or the matter. I have been very open about how feel things are being done and how we could be doing things more efficiently and more productively. Don’t limit yourself and don’t limit those around you. You never know what some people are capable of and what you are able to do. Our actions help shape the world around us and then it begins to ripple to others, thus causing an effect, one of which is good for all.

-EB